Monday, October 25, 2010

Time discovers truth...

And 'time heals what reason cannot.'


I believe this. There was a time when I counted the days, then the weeks, and then months. Today I had to stop and count it because it has escaped me and for that I'm thankful.


It's been a year and five months today that he passed.


As I get older, the memories from when I was a child get more distant and blurry.. That's how the memories are with him. Maybe that's my mind or hearts way of being able to keep moving. I can see them, but it's like it's a video of someone else's life being played out in front of me. Somedays I wonder if there is something wrong with me because I didn't think I'd be able to think of him this soon and not break down.


'Time is the best counselor of them all..'


There's some that told me that time would heal, and others told me that time wouldn't. Time has and I've been able to keep moving. I can have memories of him and watch them pass me by and still keep on moving.


I started this blog so I could see how life has changed and I'm glad I did. Although there's so much raw emotion in most of them it's hard to go back and read but I know I have come a long ways and life has gotten a lot better as the days go by.


'Difficult times have helped me to understand better than before, how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way, and that so many things that one goes worrying about are of no importance whatsoever...'


For awhile I wanted my life back to normal.. well it is. It may not be the normal I had with him, but it's become MY normal and for that, again, I'm thankful. =]